you make me smileee in my hearttt

haha. yea that video is kinda strange. but for some reason, upon watching it, i was reminded of countless memories with my friends and i. doing stupid shit, going crazy, letting lose. call it selfish, cause honestly we'd feel like we were the only people on the earth, and nobody was watching. so carefree. and no, this is not because we were under the influence of anything. no matter what, we'd just be that way. it's the lack of gaf'ing about what anybody thinks. i really miss those times and the people i shared those memories with.

it's not that now i'm scared of people judging me or anything. i think it is just me. i'm self-conscious, now that i can think clearly.


i always find myself so fuckin confused. it's like people feed off of this confusion or something. i get strong hunches about shit sometimes, and am usually right. but in this case i really hope i'm wrong.

p.s.