before...

i used to be like, what the deuce when people used the term, "... made my heart melt." my heart is stone and stone don't melt. haha jk. but today, or well yesterday since it is like 1:00 A.M., i felt my heart melt. it is one of the most ineffable feelings and i don't even know if i am assigning the correct name to it, but it was really refreshing and i feel rejuvenated.

seriously, i want to take the world by storm. i'm not really a schemer, i just go with the flow and shit happens to fall my way sometimes, and sometimes shit falls on me. but as of late, i've been planning, dreaming, designing, creating ways for me to get where i want to be. i don't wanna get wrapped up in the same unproductive situations and bad influences that i got exposed to in high school. i REALLY want to focus and be successful. if my set path doesn't work out, it is otay. just sit back and rethink things. but as for now, i know what i want in the future, and i know how to get it. i'm on the pursuit of happiness.

sidenote: while writing that last paragraph, i realized how important money is to society, and me personally. i don't think having a lot of money necessarily makes you selfish or greedy, or less attached to the problems of the world than any other human being who inhabits this planet. it is what people do with the money that implies those things. and i can't wait to take over the w... i mean help the world with my anticipated wealth...after i stock up on d&g and armani suits.

i really miss people back home, but i've been communicating a lot with all my good friends, so it is slightly bearable not being able to see the people i care about the most.

i'm getting to work with microsoft. i really hope this results in some good work experience and will provide me the opportunity to learn from professionals and all that. i'm really looking forward to wearing suits, and bowties, and sweater vests, and everything else in my business casual arsenal. i feel like a grownup. and it is great.

ok, this turned out to be a really long post when i really intended on making one single point, but hey. it has been a while since i really put anything significantly meaningful on here and not all cryptic and shit.

after listening to a bunch of other amateur producers and shit like that, i really like the shit that i've produced. call it cocky, i don't give a fuck. if i'm proud of something i've done i'm gonna be proud. i've been modest for too long. (plus i kinda know that not many people are going to read this, so they won't know i'm being cocky hehe). but yea, i can let these dream-killers kill my self-esteem, or use my arrogance as a steam to power my dreams.


today on my daily shuffle-through-random-songs-on-my-ipod trip, i found this to be strikingly beautiful