shooks

everyone seems to be progressing. boom boom progress. except me. but frankly, i don't give a fuck. boom boom priorities. where do i wanna be in 10 years? above your asses. they say it is human nature to be selfish, so yea. i give up on being altruistic. i'm sick of pleasing people, i'm starting to slip. i please those that please me and that is that. i don't need anything from anybody, except myself. i'm the only thing i'm afraid of, oh and blood too. and murderers. and drowning. but i'm not afraid of death. i don't even know why i am typing this. for the sheer joy of listening to the sound the keyboard makes. that shit sounds sweet. i wanna be someone that works in a place where everyone uses computers and stuff. so i could listen to a bunch of keyboards all day. i hope keyboards don't become touchscreen, or else that sound will vanish. i wanna zoom zoom zoom a few years in the future, and see if my live gets stabilized. it is strange, cause i want a stable life. yet without spontaneity and abnormality, i don't think i could be happy. contradictions, story of my life.